Wednesday, 16 July 2014

your messed-up life still thrills me

Yesterday was my dad's birthday. (And Ian Curtis' birthday but we didn't go out to dinner because of that.) This is the outfit I wore for a celebratory meal out. The weather has been so warm lately which is lovely but it means no layering :( (but I'm not letting it stop me from showing off my favourite tights.)

Hairband was a gift, sunglasses from Primark, shell necklace I bought on holiday years ago, chain necklace from Primark, bracelet from Next, top from River Island, belt from Claire's, skirt from Topshop, tights from ASOS and shoes from Rocket Dog.

I really liked wearing this outfit, but then again I tend to like my outfit whenever I'm wearing these shoes.

Monday, 14 July 2014

there is a light that never goes out

Recently I have been adding to my bedroom to make it into a summer sanctuary for reading and writing and listening to records when I don’t feel like venturing outside. I’ve made a selection of shrine-type collections of objects with the idea of pale yellow summer mornings in mind. I think that it’s important to have things that you love in plain sight in your bedroom. It is inspiring to you’re your idols’ eyes staring back at you wherever you stand and not creepy at all (it’s kinda creepy getting changed in front of 120 pairs of eyes ://.) As my room is so personalised, it conveys a certain image (PSYCHOPATHIC SERIAL KILLER, I’m sure, because of all the images collaged around the walls) to everyone who comes into it. I kind of like that though; it makes it more special than any other room in the house. 

This first shrine is a general collection of things that I love at the moment. Kate Bush is my latest obsession and I found out yesterday that my mum has “The Whole Story” on vinyl from when she was in her twenties. The flowers are to symbolise summer and the journal is the one that I started at the beginning of August last year.

Kate Bush record, Marc Jacobs perfume bottle tops, comb from my grandma, homemade flower crown, August-December 2013 journal.

My mirror which currently says "RIOT NOT DIET."

This one is very teen culture inspired. The Smiths, James Dean and Morrissey represent feeling like an outsider; but as so many people feel that way during adolescence they have become symbolic of that period of life, with James Dean being one of the "original" teens in popular culture, after his groundbreaking role in "Rebel Without A Cause."

Grease, Tavi Gevinson and the paper fortune teller represent exaggerated teen-ness. Grease is the quintessential high school movie and Tavi is the quintessential Teen Queen. The paper fortune teller makes me think of sleepovers and entering the uknown but still needed some sort of security.

Glitter in a bottle for bottled up dreams, chain necklace for rebllion but also for feeling trapped and old sweets for nostalgia.

This one is more of a tribute to my tween self. I used to reference "The Great Big Glorious Book For Girls" ALL THE TIME and Teen Vogue was my favourite magazine. I made the little trinket box at school in Year 7 and the pink dinosaur perching on top of the book was the first thing I ever won from a 2p machine and I was ecstatic about it.

The right-hand corner of my room featuring various pictures of people I admire, old Vogue covers, "Sunflower Sutra" by Allen Ginsberg and a framed painting I did at my grandma's house.

Morrissey, Johnny Marr and James Dean above a picture I got from an Urban Outfitters zine.

My reading area feat. more pictures of my faves, 2 copies of the Complete Works of Oscar Wilde (one copy doesn't include the letters), some postcards I got in Paris last year and Little Black Jacket exhibition posters.

Saturday, 12 July 2014

arty farty

Vogue Catwalk Edits are one the expected highlights of each year. There are so many fabulous trends predicted from the Autumn/Winter 2014 Collections. Although the polar opposite of the normcore look I've been lusting after lately, this spread made me seriously fangirl. There are so many directions to go in using different interpretations of this trend. I can't wait to see how people incorporate it into their style:

Here are some outfits I styled today in response to this trend. I spent most of today in the garden, after going to my first volunteering session at the library, and I decided to look through my clothes and see if I had anything that kind of fitted the aesthetic of this spread.

 Top from eBay, skirt is thrifted. If you wear it without shoes or socks like I did the whole outfit only comes to like £5. Thumbs up emoji.

Top from River Island, skirt from Kaos. The print on the top reminds me a little of the Acne top in the spread above, but not as cool because it doesn't include the sculpture print or the pixelated detail.

Blouse is Meadham Kirchhoff for Topshop <3 <3 and skirt is from New look.

Another thing I did in the garden today was doodle some images from tumblr that I've recently reblogged. Volunteering at the library this morning was nice but my volunteer sash fell off without me noticing and I tripped on it just off the High Street -_-

Wednesday, 9 July 2014

summer in the suburbs

Last year I had ten weeks off school over the summer and came up with so many grand schemes and plans that I hoped would lead to me squeezing every possible ounce of ~teen fun/excitement/yolo-ness out of the holidays. I was hoping for some great adventure or summer romance or something clich├ęd and fiction inspired like that. It was the summer I turned sixteen so it made sense for something somewhat monumental to happen. Obviously, nothing of the sort happened. I did have some good days but mostly I was bored and sad and bored. That’s why this summer, although it is just a regular six weeks this time, I am going to be contented with everyday life in the small suburban town I live in. 
I’ve lived in the same house my entire life. I don’t particularly like where I live (i hate my town nd im emo.) It’s not particularly dangerous or anything (though there used to be a gang who carried knives and hung out on the green that my bedroom window faces onto- I didn’t choose the thug lyf guyz), it’s just so goddamn boring. However, there are so many teen movies out there that focus on the mundane aspects of adolescence and, luckily, a lot of them have super cute suburban neighbourhood shots that remind me of the area I live in. 
Although school is horrible, if we look it more as an experience or even an aesthetic, it’s a lot more bearable. I think about Rookie's "School Spirit" shoot a lot although it's nothing like what my school looks like. If you think of every bad or boring day as a memory as opposed to a here and now experience then it is easier to persevere with. I know that isn’t very #yoloswagteen of me, but it isn’t possible to be #yoloswag everyday because you have to get up to go to school and put up with mean people from time to time and sometimes deal with feeling very lonely and isolated. That's why I've put together this image compilation of film stills and britpop music videos to help me cope with the fact that I can't catch the train to London every single day this summer:

Vancouver in the '60s
Music Video for "Babies" by Pulp
Edward Scissorhands
The Virgin Suicides
Music video for "Parklife" by Blur
Ghost World

Recently I've taken these outfit photos with the whole suburban boredom theme from above in mind. I will probably spend most of the holidays in my garden because, despite my angsty teen persona, I actually quite like the sun:

Sunglasses from Vince Camuto, coat from Vero Moda, dress is thrifted, tights were a gift from my mum, sandals from eBay.

It was definitely too hot to be wearing this coat on the day that I wore it...but I wore it into town nonetheless. ~the things we do for fashion etc. I have so many lovely faux fur coats that I've bought over the past 2 winters that I don't want to stop wearing just because it's hot!!

I look really awkward here but Jessie always decides to follow me outside when I'm taking photos, so I thought I'd include her. See us both staring into the distance in a contemplative manner below:

My mum described this as a "springtime vogue" look and I was like "awwww thanks" :')

Flower crown diy'd, dress from Blue Vanilla, tights from asos, sandals from New Look. I haven't taken any photos on the decking before. I love the way the trellis looks in these, but to get there I had to risk getting crushed by a netball hoop, dodge maggots and fluorescent green slugs and try not to fall through the rotting wood. I'll try to take some more outfit photos here but we're going to get rid of the decking soon and possibly replace it with a summer house/shed thing, which I keep trying to bring up because I want it to be like Freddie's in Skins. It would be so lovely to have a sanctuary in the garden with beanbags and records and maybe even a mini fridge.

As of today, there are exactly 2 weeks left of school. I can't wait for the summer holidays to start. Most of the work outside of lessons at the moment consists or reading, which is okay because I love reading, but I've been working my way through "Brideshead Revisited" for 4 weeks and I'm finding it so dull. It's a shame because I liked all the texts we studied in English Lit last year. Have any of you read "Brideshead..."? Does it get better???

Friday, 4 July 2014

hope i die because of it

I’ve always found it difficult to channel just one aesthetic for a period of any longer than two or three days. However, the “My Generation” shoot in the latest issue of i-D will stay in my mind for a long time into the future. Edie Campbell is possibly my favourite model and she plays the part so divinely. I just wanna be a sixties punky rebel girl now. The gritty British vibe is suited perfectly to the aesthetic that I am constantly nostalgic over and each outfit is so gorgeously put together. The video below shows the shoot in full: 

A real narrative is created through the images. It think the main theme conveyed is one of teen boredom, but with a 50 year old aesthetic (as in the style 50 years old, not a 50 year-old teenager.) Edie seems like a rebellious sort of character who is trying to make her way through a small-minded town but ends up just feeling bored. Some of these images are from the shoot and some just have similar vibes: 

This reminds me of when I used to walk with my cousin around the suburban town where my grandma lives and we would pass all these garages and everything seemed very stale and mundane but in a beautiful way.

Pre-Factory makeover Edie Sedgwick. These remind me of the vibes of the "My Generation" shoot because they're right before the start of something big.

 From "Do You Remember The First Time?” shoot featuring The Virgin Suicide cast by Sofia Coppola and Corinne Day

 The scenes near the beginning of Factory Girl where Edie is hanging out in her new New York apartment, talking to people on the phone and smoking and looking beautiful.This generally has less of a British vibe because there is a big emphasis on the fact that it is in New York, but similar themes and styles are conveyed nonetheless.

Another gem from the "My Generation" shoot.

Another aesthetic I've been channelling a lot recently is a kind of pretty, androgynous French boy look, which basically translates to striped tops and rolled up trousers plus black coffee and Francoise Hardy. I was mostly inspired by the song "Christian Dior" by Morrissey and the line "you could've run wild on the backstreets of Lyon or Marseille reckless and legless and stoned, impregnated women and kissing mad street boys from the Napoli who couldn't even spell their own name" and the bridge "I could've run loudly and proudly on forcible entry, morally bankrupt and never non-violent and drawn to what scares me and scared of what bores me." Idk, you can listen to the song yourself, but I recited both of those lines to my friend at lunch the other day when we were talking about how it feels like we're wasting our lives by doing nothing adventurous at the moment. Here are some images that evoke this kind of feeling:

 Yohji Yamamoto's Spring/Summer 2013 collection is one of my favourite menswear collections ever. The clothes look expensive and well-made but the bagginess adds to the roughed-up nature created through the cuts and bruises on the models' faces.

Michael Pitt. Messy lipstick and dead eyes xoxo

 I still don't really know what to make of The Dreamers. It's weirder than I had expected it to be, but having watched it for a second time I appreciate it much more. The whole young people in Paris thing correlates with the vibes of this post.

Morrissey's rockabilly phase in the '90s is EVERYTHING. The way the band skips across the stage at the 1991 Dallas performance is just WOAH. Anyway the quiffs and rolled up jeans look is lovely.


 ~All black everything~

"Pretty Petty Thief" shoot in my zine (more on that below!!)

 Rhode Island 1957. I want my summer to be like this.

In other newsssssss: my zine is now available on etsy!!!!!! Below are some published and unpublished previews:


You can now purchase it in either PDF form or hard copy here: